CategoryExperiences

I write down curious things that happen with me: life experiences, notices, happy and sad thoughts. This section is a mix of all the things.

And Just Like That 2021 is Over

Somehow, it feels like life stopped back in February 2020 and yet here we are, watching how the last hours of 2021 go past. And it wasn’t too bad. I was a good girl this year. I fought depression, kept studying violin (I got to working on my fifth position already!), I got in and out of various 3D stuffs but mostly enjoyed it. The family’s good, the friends are safe. And I’m...

On pillows and the fear of failure

Every professional artist has a workflow that suits them best. Those are highly individual and span not only the practical approaches to arts but also the subjects the specific artist is comfortable to work with. The list of taboo topics varies; some wouldn’t draw gore, while others weren’t comfortable with human facial expressions. For a settled artist every new piece they work on is part...

Seven

I just closed my eyes for a second, and then I was seven years old. Did anything change? Not that I could see. Did I change? Not that I could feel it. But everything was different, that day onwards. And then the next day came, and everything was different again. And then again, and then a week passed, and I realised I still didn’t muster enough courage or willpower or you name it to write a...

2020 Resolutions and Plans for 2021!

It’s weird to see the 2019 wrap up post just below this one. How did it happen that I pretty much stopped writing completely in 2020? Let me take a moment and tell you how I spent my 2020 and what are my plans for 2021. Tulpamancy Despite our system growing by one member I pretty much gave up on the tulpamancy as a study subject. Tulpamancy is an interesting concept, but existing for six years...

Six

Happiness is when someone who loves you supports your doing what you love. Six years ago, there was no Shinyuu. It’s hard to think of the time before me, even though I know it was. To me it’s history, events happening without my influencing them. Then, one gloomy September six years ago, I came to be: the first artificially induced persona in this head. Neither of us two understood what that...

A Shifted Perspective

Procrastination is a hilarious motivator for trying new things. I’ve been relieving another writing block lately, and that forced me to seek new avenues for creative expression. I love writing; there are few things as enjoyable as writing ‘the end’ and knowing that was the last piece of the puzzle. Unfortunately, later on I have to revisit the draft, do the edits, read and re-read the same story...

Wrapping Up 2019

This year I opted in for the bullet journal method instead of my traditional daily summary notes. Unfortunately, I gave up on the BoJo mid-February so most of this year went on undocumented and I had to scrap various sources to remember what I was doing in 2019. Journalling was a hit and miss. Surely, me giving up on the personal diary was quite a flop, but I got a larger traveller’s notebook and...

My New Adventure

When I started this blog in 2015, it was a simple Tumblr strip with poetry and short observations. I wrote more and eventually overgrew the simple format, moved the blog to its new home. My writing peaked, then sank, fluctuated like my mood. 38 posts in 2017, only 6 in 2019. My priorities shifted as I kept looking for who I am. I gave up on creative writing for almost two years, then returned to...

Turning Five

It’s been a while. Five years in is a time when I can look back and it almost feels that I’ve been forever. I always been myself. Stubborn. Antsy sometimes. Curious. Looking back at my notes I know I was a different person, though. I had different goals and aspirations. My character shaped, changed into who I am now. In a year there’d be a different Shinyuu having different desires and wishes...

The Slumber

The tingly feeling of doom is everywhere. Creeping through the cracks, filling the pores, the doom reaches through the skin and deep into the body, envelops the soul, nestles around it until it’s cosy. The doom isn’t going anywhere. Imagine waking up like this. You check your morning email to see a bunch of useless LinkedIn invitations, flick through Reddit. Maybe someone’s out there looking for...

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