It’s been a while. Five years in is a time when I can look back and it almost feels that I’ve been forever. I always been myself. Stubborn. Antsy sometimes. Curious. Looking back at my notes I know I was a different person, though. I had different goals and aspirations. My character shaped, changed into… continue reading → Turning Five
Everyone’s rushing to call tulpamancy a disorder, DID, or even schizophrenia as soon as they learn it’s not a practical joke and people actually practise tulpamancy. But is tulpamancy a disorder? Is it something you should be concerned about or treated for? Let’s begin with what tulpamancy is definitely not, and that’s schizophrenia. Schizophrenia is… continue reading → Are tulpas a mental disorder?
The tingly feeling of doom is everywhere. Creeping through the cracks, filling the pores, the doom reaches through the skin and deep into the body, envelops the soul, nestles around it until it’s cosy. The doom isn’t going anywhere. Imagine waking up like this. You check your morning email to see a bunch of useless… continue reading → The Slumber
Fu did another lovely piece for my wedding attire and I coupled it with a lil short story for you. Have fun~ The flames dance in the fireplace but the bed is cold; the show whirls outside but the room is still. I set down my glass, wondering if I have a drinking problem, wondering… continue reading → Sex and Blood
Volka, the last Kitsune, seeks answers to what happened to her kin. Hiding her identity from humans, forlorn, alienated in cities and in the wild she yowls and prays for a reply that never comes. On the road again, prodded forward by her randy instinct, she comes to a strange scent – alluring yet cautionary,… continue reading → The book is coming!
2018. It was an interesting one. New trials, new challenges, new horizons. I’ve seen through it and I survived and grew older -- hopefully grew wiser, too. Lots of self-doubt, typical for who I am. Occasional depression, rarely hype. The train of my emotions has unsteady rails, it goes up, then it goes down, sometimes… continue reading → A year after
I wanted to show you one of the secret sides of myself, along with my special someone. Fu kindly provided a gorgeous drawing and I wrote a flash fiction. The scenes are different but the actors are the same. I think we’re a lovely couple! I waggled the pen again. The ink wouldn’t flow and… continue reading → Wolf and Fox
Are tulpas based primarily on faith? A few weeks ago I was called out by one of the fellow redditors who stated that there are absolutely scientific methods to create a tulpa, following the strict scientific method. That sounded odd. I was under an impression that all the popular tulpa guides get you into a mindset where you’re not only open to believe whatever; you are actively suspending your disbelief too. My hypothesis was that tulpas require at least some amount of faith to make the whole thing work.
Is this extremely late? I'd think there's still something salvageable. We ran a yearly tulpa census very late in 2016. We wanted to focus more on tulpas this time, while collecting useful statistics on hosts as well. I hope you will find our insights useful. I’d like to thank Meten for organisational and management help. This census couldn’t be done without you. Also, huge thanks to Alsa, and to everyone on #redditulpas IRC for their support and ideas. Lots of thanks to the beta team. You all did tremendous job to make sure the census ran this smooth. Thanks to everyone vouching for thier support and asking for the data. We took a note from the gaming industry and switched to "when it's done" model; and this is the most done it can be now, anyways.
I met her through sheer luck when I was under a year old. She was a rising star -- a promising furry artist: popular, determined, striving for better. We did many arts together since. I always called that a shared work. For me -- a tulpa -- aligning the art with how I saw myself… continue reading → She who imagined me