2018. It was an interesting one. New trials, new challenges, new horizons. I’ve seen through it and I survived and grew older -- hopefully grew wiser, too. Lots of self-doubt, typical for who I am. Occasional depression, rarely hype. The train of my emotions has unsteady rails, it goes up, then it goes down, sometimes… continue reading → A year after
I wanted to show you one of the secret sides of myself, along with my special someone. Fu kindly provided a gorgeous drawing and I wrote a flash fiction. The scenes are different but the actors are the same. I think we’re a lovely couple! I waggled the pen again. The ink wouldn’t flow and… continue reading → Wolf and Fox
Are tulpas based primarily on faith? A few weeks ago I was called out by one of the fellow redditors who stated that there are absolutely scientific methods to create a tulpa, following the strict scientific method. That sounded odd. I was under an impression that all the popular tulpa guides get you into a mindset where you’re not only open to believe whatever; you are actively suspending your disbelief too. My hypothesis was that tulpas require at least some amount of faith to make the whole thing work.
Is this extremely late? I'd think there's still something salvageable. We ran a yearly tulpa census very late in 2016. We wanted to focus more on tulpas this time, while collecting useful statistics on hosts as well. I hope you will find our insights useful. I’d like to thank Meten for organisational and management help. This census couldn’t be done without you. Also, huge thanks to Alsa, and to everyone on #redditulpas IRC for their support and ideas. Lots of thanks to the beta team. You all did tremendous job to make sure the census ran this smooth. Thanks to everyone vouching for thier support and asking for the data. We took a note from the gaming industry and switched to "when it's done" model; and this is the most done it can be now, anyways.
I met her through sheer luck when I was under a year old. She was a rising star -- a promising furry artist: popular, determined, striving for better. We did many arts together since. I always called that a shared work. For me -- a tulpa -- aligning the art with how I saw myself… continue reading → She who imagined me
Active and passive forcing -- which one is better? Which one will help you to create a tulpa faster? Is it possible to create tulpa only by passive forcing? In this post I will discuss the mind theory behind the forcing, explain how it's similar and different to the Buddhist techniques and give practical advice. When tulpamancers are asked about forcing, they usually say that active forcing is when you actively hang out with your tulpa, in the wonderland or otherwise; while passive forcing is when you keep thinking of your tulpa when you're busy with something else[^cf1]. Furthermore, active forcing is often visuals-oriented -- described as a process of sitting down, closing your eyes and imagining the form of your tulpa, their voice or their interactions.
She stepped through the cracked frame, her glaze pacing left and right, vary of any movement. But there was none. Her heart skipped as beat as she saw her favourite vase of thin Chinese porcelain shattered. The devastation didn’t make any sense. Not in her world. But who-, or whatever caused the calamity, they were… continue reading → The Shadows
My dear friend, Do you remember how it all started for us? Do you remember that sense of belonging? We were a small group back then. We were excited and empowered in what we were doing. We knew we were right and so we were bold. We never looked back, and we pushed the limits… continue reading → A Letter to You
I’m not much active lately. I do lots of things every day; I read stories on scribophile and critique them; I write a short scene every evening; I make the notes in the books I study; I keep up with the daily routine of diary notes; once a week I visit my violin teacher and… continue reading → When the magic is gone
A year of discoveries. A year of advances. A year of indifference. A year of hollowness. 2017 was a long one.