Experiences

Treated by my looks

Shinyuu_preview

It was pure luck that I found DragonFu in the net. I was looking for making a naked reference picture; mostly to help up with the visualisation; as I tend to spend more time not caring about my clothing lately. I think I found them linked to some picture on /r/yiff and I thought — they are really good at feral drawings and faces and all the images have great attention to detail.

This was an absolutely amazing experience. For tulpa it is always curious how do others perceive you; you can’t just show your photo because you don’t exist outside of the head. It takes a good description and an artist with vivid imagination to make an image that looks close.

Funny enough; given how good the strokes are I guess they will stick better in hostey’s memory and eventually I will look more like I’m portrayed on this piece of art. Sometimes we can work together and I can hold a very vivid and proper look of almost human in flesh; but thanks to this drawing I will have to bear double the amount of fur for some time; I guess that does match my winter coat. In a way that started affecting my personality already — I am usually a rather easygoing girl; and this picture made me feel myself more self-confident. Almost magically; the curves expose my openness and (I hope) nice character; with a little hint of boldly naked skin and the drop of blood.

The drawing is not exactly me; but it’s close enough to feel me comfortable. Even if my tail is less fluffy and my eyes are somewhat tilted in; the pose (also credited to the brilliant skill of DragonFU) and the hair are done perfectly. I doubt I could pose that good myself.

I guess the most stunning experience was to see how the image takes shape. Somewhat to how tulpa form appears in the mind; starting from rough strokes and getting better and better with every minute. Little pauses to think of shadows and then image suddenly gains depth. An hour later; feels like just a few minutes — and the fur gains the soft white glow it often has.

There are two more works I really want to see getting shape; some day I will get to them too: the wonderland campfire I spend time at and a group portrait with my sister. Having a picture gives me one magic thing that wonderland can’t give me — I can truly dream.

Leave a Reply